Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Weight loss---YAY????

***This post is NOT intended for any male readers. I'm pretty 100% sure I don't have any since this blog isn't really their cup of tea, but I'm still giving any males that may have unknowingly wandered here the explicit instructions to leave immediately or do not read this post. As always, it's TMI and completely inappropriate for anyone who believes a lady should be a lady.***


So according to my digital scale, I am down 12 lbs from what I was pre-pregnancy. Yipee!!!! Right???  I should be pumped. I started thinking....I surely don't look 12 lbs smaller. Yes, my jeans are somewhat loose--but not 12 lbs worth. I got rid of my baby weight months ago and I'm grateful for that---BUT I am utterly dumbfounded when my scale is telling me such ridiculousness, especially when I haven't even so much as THOUGHT about working out since the beginning of July when I gave up my P90X 2/3rds the way through for a little morning sleep (ok, sheer laziness).

I started pondering this strange event, and that's when it hit me. I could've lost 12 lbs, but boy was it NOT from what I wanted. I think it boils down the fact that my body has lost any muscle tone it once had. In fact, if you find my muscle tone lying around anywhere, would you please tell it to come back to me?? My butt is MIA (missing in action, mom). For the record, this is NOT a good thing. Prior to this whole mom thing, that little hiney was relatively in shape and lately it seems to be sliding down my leg a bit. It's getting smaller by the moment--and NO one is happy about it. Just for a little anatomy lesson, the booty is intended to be perky and a whole separate entity from the leg--NEVER should the two ooze into one.

The biggest hit of all occurred to my lady friends. I think this is the area I'm having the hardest time adjusting to. I've always been rather full-figured up there. But the thing is---they seemed fake, they were so dense and perky--there, I said it. They were pretty great to me. I could go out without a bra (not like I made a habit of that and YES I wore layers so no one could tell---I'm not that girl), and they wouldn't hit the floor. I could buy wicked cheap walmart bras because they kind of supported themselves. Who needs $40 of support--not me! In all honesty, they were the kind people pay for--except that I didn't.

The question is---where are they and what has become of them (oops, I guess that would be questionS)??? They've lost all sense of firmness or perkiness. They seem to have gone south for the winter, but this winter is the kind in Antarctica--NEVER ENDING! I guess the good thing is that it's no longer extremely difficult for me to do a breast exam (the rare times I remember) because there's not much going on in there.  I know this sounds weird, shallow, and horrible, but it's somewhat hard to deal with when a part of your body that you've grown so familiar with is different. I'd feel this way if it was anything--it just happens to be my boobs. I'd also be thrilled if some parts were different than what I'm used to--but that's for another post. In the same way, it would be weird for ME if all of the sudden my little sister lost hers (which let me tell you, make mine look small---sorry sis). While they're not who she is or who I am, they are what we're used to. My ladies may not seem different to anyone else but me, but they are--and I find myself somewhat self conscious about this change. I'm still fitting in my same bras, which is great because who has the money to have to go buy a whole new set of booby-lifters? Have I mentioned I'm not working??

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change my current bodily changes for the world. The reason God gave me the twins (no, I don't normally call them that and YES, I realize I sound like a gross frat boy) was to be able to nourish my baby. Even in their deflated state, they work miracles (rather, GOD does through them) and are the reason my girlie is growing, healthy, and happy. So yes....I'll take the change with that in mind.

But would I love to lose 12 lbs by a different means??? You betcha bottom dollar! So after I stuff myself with copious amounts of unhealthy food over Christmas and New Year's, I'm going to make it my mission to hopefully keep the weight loss, but begin mission Bring Booty Back. And in the meantime, I guess I'll get comfortable with the fact that I may need to invest in some better bras---no more $5 Walmart specials for me.

Surely, I'm not the only one dealing with these bodily changes?? Please tell me some of you feel my pain! And for those of my friends who are reading this and are pregnant, let this be a foreshadowing of what is to come. hehe!

11 comments:

The Girl Next Door Grows Up said...

I know. Everything shifts after you have a baby and sometimes not for the good!

Susannah said...

OK, my kids are at lunch and I am on google reader-yikes!Don't judge. :D Anyway, I hear ya on all that, my boobs are disgusting now and will never return to their former shape-they've been stretched the freak out by the pump! And now, I'm losing wads of hair! Did this happen to you? It's sicking me out!

JoeyRes said...

After breastfeeding and getting rid of the baby weight my breastises disappeared. I was nearly a C and now I'm back into training bras. At least I have the memories...

Taylor @ Jimmy Choos and a Baby Too said...

Oh my gosh! I was thinking the same thing about my post preggo body..Im way down from where I was when I got pregnant and now that makes sense..I have NO muscle! I never had a butt but my boobs were perky and now they are sooooo not! UGH!

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ElizabethMT said...

Weirdly, I'm pretty much the same as I was before I had my baby (19 months ago). I'm thinking, though, that we had really different body types going in. I'm really flat-chested & sort of boyish, so maybe that had something to do with it. Now that I'm done breastfeeding, my chest is pretty much the same small size it always was before... I liked it though, so I'm not complaining :)

Angela said...

I certainly feel your pain. In the interest of sharing TMI, I went from a 34B to a 38DD and now to a 32A. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Life is crazy like that. :)

A couple things for you. Check out fitnessblackbook.com there's a recent article on there about being "skinny fat". Right now, I think you could relate. I'm not trying to be mean (hope it didn't come off that way). I've been skinny fat pretty much my whole life until about a year ago. Maybe even up until I became an extreme shredder. ;)

Also, check out this youtube video of a woman shooting an intruder that broke into her house. After your last scare, it made me think of you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4Z_2oU9B2o

And it's nice to read about someone else's honest challenges and to see you still have the right perspective.... there are more important things in life than being beautiful...but dang it's nice to be beautiful. lol

Angela said...

I forgot to mention that I found 47c training bras (90% clearance at target) and I had to pull myself away out of pride. I could have scored a whole new bra wardrobe...and they would have fit! So sad...

joeypouch said...

I know! My breasts used to stand to attention and are now permanently at ease. :(

RUBY said...

No you're not the only one dealing with this. trust me when i say having more kids doesnt make it any better lol having my 2nd made me look at my body and remind me of one of my aunts -scaryyyy but i wouldnt trade my kids for the world however we do have the right tO complain and try to make things better.
BTW following from MBC

Gwen said...

Its amazing the changes a baby makes to every little detail. I lost my bubbies completely and developed a crazy cronic hive condition. The hives have long since disappeared but it took some surgical intervention to get the "twins" back to normal.

Weight loss is a hard thing especially after a baby. I'm fighting my weight right now so I feel your pain. I agree with you though. Enjoy your little ones first Christmas and then kick butt in the year. Best part...I'll be here cheering you on.

XOXO